G.O.S.S.I.P. Sister

The Feature Blogger of the month is Cosmopolitan Chic, editor and webmaster for the entertainment blog- Cosmopolitan Chic: Your #1 Source for Everything Entertainment, Fashion, Lifestyle and Events. She was drawn to G.O.S.S.I.P. Sister through Twitter, and has been a faithful reader ever since then. Below is her featured blog, and remember to show her blog some love as well. Be Blessed!

If anyone would have witnessed my childhood, without knowing me personally, they would have said that I was destined to be a statistic. Born to a teenage mother who did not want children and proved it on a daily basis. Born to a father who lost both his parents at a young age and despite his desire to be a husband and father, had no clue how to do either. As a result, he made, probably, one of the worse decisions of his life—-picking the wrong woman to be his wife. Physical and emotional abuse in the home led to foster care, then life with a negative, unhappy grandmother who was overly burdened and disappointed by the life choices of her six dependent adult children. Yes, anyone who only looked at my life circumstances would have labeled me a statistic. But those people did not know me or the God I serve.

Because no one in my family understood the concept of “quality” parenting, most of my childhood was unhappy beyond description. But even then, I knew that I was destined to beat the odds. Instead of falling victim to my circumstances, I developed a near obsessive desire to succeed; which can only be credited to God’s desire for me to fulfill my purpose in life. I have questioned a lot of things in my life, but have never questioned that fact that my life has a greater meaning than just my earthly desires. I believe that my desire to succeed stems, at least in part, from my desire to prove people wrong. But, more importantly, my success stands as a testament to other children and young adults who come from similar dysfunctional backgrounds that it is not only possible to survive, but to thrive and prosper.

My childhood has also given me a greater sense of what is important in the world. It is paramount to me that my career always have a purpose besides just money; that I give back to my community through volunteerism; and that I mentor disadvantaged youth in some way. It is also very important to me to be a mother someday (through birth and adoption) and break the cycle that is so prevalent in my family.

Everything that has happened in my life, even though I did not know the reason at that time, I understand was for a distinct purpose. I still have a lot of doubts sometimes, and I know that when doubt sets in I should read my bible more and wait for answers—but this is easier said than done. What I struggle with the most is my fear that I will end up alone. Being a black woman, I am more than aware of the odds of finding a black man who is a Christian that I am both in love with and have the vitally important compatibility. It is so hard in today’s world to be a Christian woman in our “anything goes” society. Sometimes, I am so discouraged, especially because of the slim pickings in the city in which I live.

However, I try to hold firm to the fact that I know that God does not give me a spirit of fear and I must stand steadfast in my belief that God answers all prayers as long as they are unselfish and serve his will. I know that God has always revealed his purpose for my life in due time; and, therefore, I must continue to trust him. I know I must allow him to guide my life and direct my path.

In closing I would like to say, again, that it was not a coincidence that I found your blog (G.O.S.S.I.P. Sister). This blog has helped me tremendously in many of my times of depression or doubt. For that, I am truly grateful. We all should use whatever our talents are to contribute something to the world because we never know what a profound effect it may have on someone else’s life.

-CosmopolitanChic

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