G.O.S.S.I.P. Sister

Once upon a time, I used to be able to pinpoint different situations in my life that I found to be difficult, and then I’d say “man, that was the hardest thing I’ve ever done or been through…” As I’m getting older, I now realize that life itself is hard to go through. There are so many ups and downs, so many blessings and tribulations, so many smiles and tears. One day I’d think I’ve got it all figured out and 3 days later I feel backed into another corner by someone or something called Life. I’m going to be very candid and say there have been times when I didn’t want to go through this anymore, and by saying this, I mean life. I didn’t think I could take it, I didn’t feel I was strong enough to handle the adversity of it all. But then at one of my lowest moments I realized that all I had left was my faith! All I had left to grasp onto was hope! Nothing else made sense to me anymore. I reached over to my nightstand for my Bible and I started reading, crying, and praying. Two hours later when I closed my Bible I felt renewed in mind, body, and spirit. For the next 7 days I stopped two hours out of each day to read my Bible and study His word, minus the crying (ok, well I did cry sometimes, but it was out of tears of joy and revelation and no longer of frustration and pain). Throughout this fast with studying and praying I gained new strength every single day, my faith became stronger, and I was focused. I will still say that life is the hardest thing I’ve ever done or will go through, but it’s not as unbearable as I once thought. I always heard the saying “the Lord will never put more on me than I can bear,” but now I know what that means for me. I learned that if I have the faith of a mustard seed I can move mountains and nothing is impossible for me. In my bedroom I have what I call “A Corner of Positivity,” and there’s an inspirational passage pinned to the wall that emphasizes “when we focus on God and the things above, we combat the negativity of the world that tries to pull us down.” I found that to be true to me and what I had to do. I’ve lived a rather sheltered and privileged life so I am now learning that the adversity I am going through is not by accident, its God’s way of bringing me closer to Him, (that’s a whole ‘nother blog though!) However, I encourage you to embrace the struggles of life, and don’t give up, instead- look up to the hills where all your help cometh.

Be Blessed!

~Gossiper~